Resilience

Ugh, I'm glad this day is coming to an end. Keragan did a little better tonight. She woke up pretty hungry, so I went ahead and gave her the bottle instead of using the feeding tube. She downed the entire bottle in 15 minutes with no issues! She seemed much more like her sweet little self, which was reassuring. The doctors consulted a specialist because of her rapid decline, and he thinks it was an adverse reaction to the eye drops the eye doctor gave her. I really hope that is all it is, however she was really lethargic before the eye doctor even came.
They are giving her until tomorrow morning to be breathing consistently again, otherwise they are going to put her back on caffeine, which means a couple more weeks in the hospital. Im so tired and so ready to go home, and the thought of several additional weeks is maddening.
I'm learning a lot about our daughter during this time. Today I learned how resilient she is. Even with everything she was going through, she would open her eyes and smile at me. And then this evening, I was scared to bottle feed her, but she almost demanded it, and then she took all 2 oz with no problems at all. Compared to how she was acting this morning I would never have thought she would bounce back that quickly, even temporarily. But she did!
Tomorrow she will be 6 weeks old. It's crazy to think that the first 8 or 9 weeks of her life will be spent in the hospital. But it'll all be worth it when we take her home for good!!
Thanks for your prayers, and please continue to keep Keragan (and Troy and i) in your prayers.