Settling In

Well, we all made it through the first week!  Since I wrote the last post, Kera is back to her calm, happy self.  In fact, Saturday she was so calm she just wanted to be held and cuddled all day.  Which was fine with me!  Troy was gone all day and there was an air quality alert outside, so we snuggled and watched some chick flicks and took some naps.  

I decided that I was putting too much pressure on myself last week.  I have struggled with feeling guilty about not being around much for Kera this summer because of work.  Also, I feel pressure to work on some things that were kind of neglected this summer.  She's almost six months old (Saturday!) and is not on a schedule, doesn't sleep through the night, and isn't eating solids.  I know that the doctors say that we have to go by her adjusted age, which is 4 months, but I still feel like we need to try.  

On top of that, I feel like I need to work extra to make sure that my job knows that I am actually working and getting stuff done.  And, I have a hundred projects around the house that I've wanted to do all summer.  All of this resulted in a to do list a mile long and completely unattainable. 

I know now that I can't do it all.  No one expects it of me except myself.  And I don't need to.  So, this week we're taking a different approach... relax and enjoy my time with my daughter!  And still have a smaller, more manageable to do list.  So I'm feeling much better this week about this arrangement, and I know that as we continue to settle in and find our groove, things will go much smoother.