Rough day

This past week has been full of excitement and joy... Getting the call, seeing the pictures, finding out the birth mother signed the papers, meeting her, holding her for the first time, seeing her smile at me, the list goes on and on. I was on such a high, that today, when things didn't go so well, I had a lot farther to fall.
We had family visiting today, so I figured she'd be tired by the end of the day. I didnt, however, expect her progress to be halted so abruptly before they even got a chance to hold her. After two excellent days, I came in to find that she had several bad apnea spells last night and didn't take a bottle at all. And then, i watched her go through several more spells and all I could do is sit there helpless.
Just yesterday I spent a good 6 hours just holding her!! I had to try hard not to take her lack of progress personally. I thought that having human contact was supposed to help, not hurt. I've known her for just over 48 hours, and I'm already so in love with this little girl that it kills me to see her go through this.
In talking to the nurses, though, they tell me that this is normal... We experienced the good, now we have to experience the bad. The important thing is that we are there for her and pray for her.
Please keep her in your prayers. Her breathing is still rough, but now her heart rate has been falling as well. Pray for her brain to mature to remind herself to breathe and her heart to beat. And pray for us as we go on this emotional roller coaster.