It was hard leaving for work on Monday morning, and honestly I spent the good part of the day thinking about how I could work it out that I could stay home with Keragan. I still spend my lunch looking on Craigslist for part time evening jobs that pay a lot of money... unfortunately I'm not finding anything that would work.
As much as it's an adjustment for me, it's also been an adjustment for her. I wasn't expecting that, because Troy's staying home with her. It's not like she's in a different environment or on a different schedule, however she seems pretty clingy in the evenings now. She used to be able to be put down easily with no fussing, but she's really been fighting sleep and not wanting to be put in her crib. I'm not convinced that it's because I'm back to work, but it's enough that it makes me feel a little guilty for not being home with her all of the time.
Today we had the dreaded follow up eye appointment. Since that first eye exam when we had all of the issues, I've been extremely weary of additional appointments. I actually put this one off as long as I possibly could. But we finally went today, and everything is great! We don't have to go back until she is 3!!! The place we took her actually does all of the preemie exams at the same time, so we were in a room with a bunch of other preemies. Generally she's the smallest baby wherever we go, however this time she was the biggest. It was eye opening hearing the other mothers' stories of what their babies had gone through, how long they were in the hospital, what issues they had, etc. Two of the babies close to us were born the same week as Keragan. One was still on oxygen, and both had to be under 5 pounds. It made me realize how well Kera is doing in her growth and development.
Speaking of growth and development, I can't believe how much she's changing every day! She's been holding up her head and stiffening her back for a couple of weeks now, but I noticed today that when I went to burp her, she really wanted to sit up on her own! It doesn't last very long, but she keeps trying. And she's cooing and smiling a lot more voluntarily. She has her favorite spots and toys, and is definitely developing a personality. It's fun, but I'm still not sure I'm ready for her to grow up!
Along with her developments, she's also losing her hair. I thought we had missed that fun stage, but she started losing it last week. She's still got the hair on top, but she's pretty bald on the sides and back. I guess we'll find out what her hair will look like when it comes back in! In the meantime, we'll just wear lots of hats...
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